i miss the cold chills. I’m over summer

27 Days Left. 

Sleep. Work. Train. Eat. Sleep. Rinse and Repeat.


When life throws you a fast one you try and slow it down. It’s seems like the world has come to a halt at my feet and I can see the world unravelling, thread by thread.

I’m unhappy but no one knows it. I put on a brave face everyday but there are days that I can’t brave it anymore. Time is precious and it seems like it is working against me. 

The struggle of balancing working and relationships are starting to outweigh themselves. There is no longer pleasure. There is longer moments of pure bliss where you just want to embrace the moment and freeze time just to enjoy it a while longer. What makes it worse is the fact that I enjoy being alone, I miss being myself. I think I have lost a large chunk of who I really am, trying to be who I am not. If you can’t be yourself and be happy, why bother ?

Maybe I’m trying too hard to be someone that I am not.  Who knows.

“You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.” 

Snow season is back !